Covid 19 – 20 – 21 – Lived Experience
The intensity of the lived experience of now, the sun shining the crisp shadows sharp defined, etched , the inner shift from dread to joy.
Then the different qualities of exhaustion- from just days of waiting, dread ,worrying, wondering, hoping, guessing (prevents me from kicking up into headstand) edge of tiredness another level..so gradually it lessens..
Then, rain, water, the near death of the phone. Terminal?
Turned off, into rice, the end of all my games and steps and habits.
Another loss, another giving-up.
Letting-go.
No human sighting much less speech for a week. Floods.
Desire, need , greed, I want, I feel, I like, I need.
NO.
Cannot move .
The days are getting longer
The mornings lighter
The only sign of the passage of time
I get older